Mable
Clyde woke in her cozy old bed,
it
was Hate the World Monday and she
covered her head. Quite forgetting her mantra from the evening before,
she grunted and pounded her alarm to the floor.
In
nine minutes time it sounded again,
with
a violent and biting monotonous tone. Momentary relief for Mable’s frail brain
found it muffled, top-side-down on a robe.
But
psychotically crafted alarm clocks crescendo full bore
so
Mable reached and she patted from mattress to floor. She grasped it and cursed it and squeezed out its last buzz
then stomped to the bathroom door.
Things did not improve as Mable rushed through
her day
trying
to play corporate in an ethical way. She questioned as instructed by those who instruct-
but the questions she questioned were inappropriate.
So
she found herself frustrated with what she should do
but
she doubted her ability to find something new. In only one day Sunday’s optimism was gone
and she trudged home resenting her position as pawn.
Two
different Tuesdays and two interviews
both
filled with the same patronizing howdy-dee-do. One said, “Thank you for your time and for your motivation.
You do have experience and enthu—siasm,
but for someone that holds your current position
this is not at all the typical progression,
what I mean is to say it’d be quite the promotion!”
At
this Ms. Clyde envisioned smashing her head
and
wished for a lolli-pop and a pat on the head instead of a grammatical abomination telling her why
this position was some unobtainable prize.
Instead
she smiled and thanked him for taking the time,
said
she appreciated his advice on her corporate climb. She shook hands with more oomph than he had put in
and acknowledged her knowledge of his embarrassed chagrin.
The
other provided a bit more to her credit,
at
least taking time to mention she had a right to present it, “Your ideas are certainty enlightening, and you’ve invested your time
focusing on the highly favorable aspects we find…
“Oh
groan,” Mable thought, “Here comes the script-
I’ve
lost another one to locked-in-a-box politics. I’ve got to get out, I can’t do anything here!”
Mable stood and she smiled and her intentions were clear.
And
again she found home this time curled in a quilt
then
wasted a Wednesday surrounded by the self pity she built. She grumbled that the world had turned crazy, lazy and mean
and hypocritically admitted that she found it obscene.
But
this was not the type of person she thought she’d become,
all
cloistered, defeated, despondent and dumb. In her heart raged a demon of great diffidence
and she feared it succeeded in stifling her sense.
With
gritted teeth Mable glared into the mirror-
her
own angry face with a flicker of fear.She felt her heart burn and the reflection felt double-
she pounded the counter and pushed down her trouble.
Then
straightened to standing as she pulled at her hair,
she
pushed at her head until clarity got there. When the simplest inkling of inspiration set in,
Mable smiled and sighed and allowed a small grin to escape,
it
had been hidden, locked tight-
the
solution was there, it has to be, right? The solution to relief from this mundane existence,
this soul-sucking funk, this rot on your ass persistence of procrastination
and abusive self-reflection…
Mable
looked into her eyes and had to take action.
She
solicited an untapped selection of brain and her exhausted reflection did much of the same-
she drew another deep breath and shuddered and sighed,
she’d need to wake up tomorrow and find Mable Clyde.
With
clear-headed ambition and a stern look in the mirror
she
concentrated hard until her old Sunday mantra was clear. She prepared herself right with a voice strong and steady,
“Good night, Sweet Pea”. She said, “Dream Big and wake up ready.”
Three
weeks of Thursdays and only one of them rough
saw
Mable Clyde ready and emotionally tough- she woke up each day and remembered her name,
she recalled some old faces and she let go of her shame.
Mable
folded her quilt for her old snuggly cat
and
put on her boots and a snazzy new hat. She found nice conversations and danced in the street
thankful for the freedom to follow her feet.
She
started to listen beyond the same walls
And
sought out a profession where she could stand tallThen found the right fit far away from the greed
and worked with a diligence to help small business succeed.
By
the time each next Friday came Mable Clyde’s way
something
wonderful happened on each glorious day -weekend or weekday, vacations or not,
good days, bad days, cold days and hot-
all of the days in Mable Clyde’s life,
were just that, all days in her life she could count.
And
counting is one thing but to add living is better
when
living has loving, has laughter, has letters.So Mable dreamed big all the nights of her days
in her cozy old bed in cozy old ways.
She
woke through the seasons prepared for the weather
taking
time for learning, for Orion or to study a feather. She woke from big dreams for self, family and dear friends,
remembering always to be ready for what lies ahead.
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